late in the game

so, after what feels like an entire generation after the beginning of xanga and friendster (oh man, i just realized there might now be people out there who don't even know what those things are), i've begun another one of these things. however, this time, unfortunately, it wasn't obligatory. is that unfortunate or courageous?

insecure much?

this is how many of my unnecessary conflicts with people have occurred. and also why watching "curb your enthusiasm" is sometimes therapeutic. i say or do things out of simple honesty, which hold contrary cultural definitions, and unintentionally communicate something absolutely the opposite of what i'm thinking or believing. thank God for larry david and his stupid antics. there really is someone out there like me!

does it concern me that that someone is a cynical, balding jewish writer/comedian in the winter of his life? no. maybe it should concern him that he's very much like a sarcastic, 30 year old, korean, christian illustrator/missionary girl. right now, nobody wants to be any of those things... except maybe an illustrator. but not even that because of the economy. i just met a janitor at olive garden the other day who graduated from cal arts with an animation degree.